Tuesday, July 29, 2008

First Solid!








So Ellison is getting close to turning 5 months old ahd we had the okay from our pediatrician to let her try solids back around 4 months of age. Well we gave in a couple of days ago and so far (the 2 times we have tried) she is pretty much giving lots of sour and unsure faces plus I am pretty sure ends up having more of the cereal around her than in her actual belly. Here are some pictures of the first try...

Friday, July 25, 2008

This week...





Here are some photos from this week. Ellison and I enjoyed just spending time together at home and is what we plan on doing all weekend and next week. I just can't seem to be able to put the camera down. So many pictures appear to be the same thing but to me they are each so different...have a great weekend!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Feeling down...

Ellison is napping peacefully in her crib which means I have time to myself and that leads to thinking about a lot of things! I am feeling a little down at the moment. I can't believe I only have 7 more days being at home full time with Ellison. I feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster. People ask how I feel about starting my student teaching and being away from Ellison, well it depends on the day that you ask. It is just so incredible and a true blessing to be able to spend every day with your child, watching them change and grow. I would absolutely do anything in this world to be able to be a full time stay at home mom. I would do anything to be able to be home with her part time even. I am not saying I want to be at home until it is time for her to start school- but I would truly love to be at home whether full time or part time once my student teaching ends until the end of next summer (start of the new school year). Why then? Well for me and the plan I have in my head that is just the way I see it and it is what I feel would make me happiest. How selfish does that sound ("it would make me happiest")...it should be about Ellison not me. And then I get even more selfish and ask if that mom can stay at home why can't I? And as I think further (which I do often) I do want this for Ellison not just me. Doesn't she deserve it? Don't I deserve it? Wouldn't any mother deserve it? What if this is the only time I have to experience this? Whether we have more children or not this is the only time I can share it with Ellison.

What I do know and what I have to constantly remind myself when I am feeling down is I am so lucky to be a parent of an amazing little girl. To this day I still think I have to pinch myself to believe that the past 4 months of motherhood have actually taken place. I know that both Connor and I will do anything in our power to provide Ellison with everything she needs and deserves. We will make sacrifices even if it means tough times for us because she is worth everything. I never thought I could love someone so much with only knowing them for such a short time and be willing to do absolutely anything in this world to provide them with all the happiness and joy possible! The day she was born, the second I laid eyes on her my life completely changed (I know everyone tells you that this will happen but you truly do not get it until you are living the moment).

I know everything will work out for the best and the plan will be what it is suppose to be. I just ask for encouraging thoughts, advice and overall support as I learn how to make this huge adjustment from being a full time stay at home mom to not. Maybe my turn for it will come again(hopefully it will whether it is with Ellison again or with our next child). I am worried about so many little things...trying to keep Ellison's routine, changing my routine, being able to continue with breastfeeding, continuing to be a great mom even though I am not there for every cry-smile-laugh-feeding-nap-new discovery/accomplishment/milestone, continuing to be a great wife with adding on more responsibilies, being a good teacher to the students I will be assisting during the next 12 weeks...the list goes on.

If you made it to the end of all this chatter...thank you for listening. I just wanted to share my thoughts and I guess vent some concerns and frustrations that I know I am not alone in feeling.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Farm Trip





Ellison took her first trip to "The Farm" yesterday. The Farm belongs to the Cantrell Family (good friends of ours) and Connor has been taking trips there since he was in high school. Then I started going after we began dating and now Ellison gets to join us on these adventures. The Farm is beautiful and is a great place to chill out, go fishing, four wheeling, be outdoors and is a great getaway. Plus our dogs have the opportunity to wear themselves OUT- which they did. I think this overnight trip made up for the past 4 months for the doodles. Ellison even had her own camo to wear. We have tons of pictures to share so please enjoy the slideshow. Ellison did great for her first night away from home.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Pictures from this week...






We had fun going to the pool, visiting with family, taking a trip to Columbia, being lazy around the house, having our annual block party, hosting a baby shower for friends and much more! This weekend we are headed to our friends' farm to relax, go fishing and 4 wheeling (Ellison is going but no four wheeling for her of course!). We will be back Sunday so everyone have a great weekend!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

4 months old!





Ellison turned 4 months old over the weekend. I can't believe it- she has changed SO much and I can't seem to keep up with all of things she accomplishes because it is something different every day. To celebrate her turning 4 months we have a well check up at the doctor today which means more SHOTS! Not quite the way I want to celebrate- hopefully this time her daddy and I will pull it together a little bit better because we were more nervous and upset about the shots at her 2 month check up than she was. I was looking at all of the pictures we have taken of Ellison since she was born and wanted to show how much she really has changed in just 4 months time...

Friday, July 11, 2008

Picture of the week!


Would you look at those frumpy cheeks? Ellison does this face a lot...I have to admit she got those cheeks from my Great Grandmother Ellison and her Umpa!

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Our doodles...







These pictures are random- I know. I have not given our dogs any recognition so I thought I would. Our doodles (labradoodles) have truly been wonderful with the new addition to our family. I always said to Connor (before Ellison came) that when we have a baby we can't be those people who just throw their dogs outside all the time so you don't have to deal with them. Well- as I type this blog in front of our kitchen window and I look outside into our back yard at these 2 precious (but pitiful) faces covered in drool and dirt you can guess what person I have become. Before Ellison came our "babies" were Copper and Hogan. We would play all the time, take them on good long walks, running in vacant fields, swimming in the creek...the list goes on and on. Not that we don't do any of those things but the frequency of it all has definitely decreased.
Just to give a quick introduction for them- Hogan is the brown doodle. He was a surprise- we planned on getting Copper (the other doodle) but when I came home Connor surprised me with Copper AND Hogan. I wouldn't have it any other way. He is SO loving and sweet. He CRAVES attention and all that he wants 24/7 is for someone to be touching him. He is so sweet to Ellison and loves any chance to cover her in wet kisses. When we go to bed at night the doodles start out in our room on their beds but every time I go to check on Ellison in the middle of the night I find Hogan laying right beside her crib. He is her protector...
Now Copper on the other hand is a little different. He is definitely more goofy, free spirited, laid back and has selective hearing. Copper too has been so kind with Ellison, however he honestly could care less at the same time. He just steps over her when we are playing on the floor and on some occassions has actually pawed at her thinking she might play with him. He does not give her kisses but just checks her out every once and awhile. At night time you wouldn't find Copper in her room unless it was to steal her toys (which he does ALL the time).
Overall- they make us happy and mad, they make us laugh & smile, we LOVE and adore our doodles and our family would not be complete without them!

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Recovery...








So far this week has been a recovery period for us from a CRAZY, FUN but EXHAUSTING weekend! Ellison & I had a lot of pajama time. We also had a very fun play date with my friend Robin and her son Thomas! Robin and I had a "wonder mom" moment while we were trying to transport all the baby stuff from place to place to keep the little ones entertained. We both claimed we never want to hear that being a mommy is not a job...I think the picture shows how busy we stay and motherhood is definitely a full time job with meltdowns! We are excited about Connor having a 3 day weekend & Ellison's Uncle Jeff being in town to visit! We hope everyone has a great Fourth of July!